I decided to study but then I noticed the heaviness of my eyelids and that the fact I couldn't concentrate on one thing (thinking about nothing) meant that my attention level was too great to sleep but too small to study. So I decided to put order in my appartment, and my brain started commenting on every action. I became quite pissed about it and felt unable to stop it. I decided not to heat water to make dishes (my water tap in my bath is leaking, so I get that water and give it to my plants and make dishes with it because it has heavy whatever-the-pipes-are-mad
OK another thing I badly wanted to say that I didn't yesterday: I witnessed evapotranspiration yesterday. I got that burst of fog right above my plants when the Sun was hitting my appartment and I didn't understand at first because I wasn't showering/rice cooking/other humid activities (lol) but when I understood what was going on I was so glad to be in environment and get a sense out of simple physical phenomenon.
I realize getting sleep is really important if I want to internalize what I've learned yesterday properly, so I might turn of my alarms to not put stress on myself for sleeping now, and it might help me to drift in sleep. Sorry for that little therapy thing; if Facebook can be useful, it might be now: since I filled this wish of speaking my mind, getting the circular thoughts out of it, I will sleep. Moreover, since I'm not able to get thoughts off my mind, I might fill it with the smell of the rose petals I gathered from the Save Frosty the Snowman event. If EVER anyone is able to read this in its entirety, let me know.